Walking towards sunshine II

With every heartbreak, you look inside and see that little heart of yours torn into million little pieces, you swear you will never give it to anyone and will never accept anyone else’s. You try to put the pieces together, alas..you fail. The gash is too deep, and the flow of blood won’t stop.  The pain is endless that you wake up, stare at your pillow all soggy, and wonder if that emotional drain will ever come to a hush.

You – robotically-live your life, start walking around with this sort of apparently focused yet actually absent look, the sun takes notice and decides to chase you like you used to chase her… teasingly glistening on your skin, you realize that you have to play along.   You look and remember that you have missed out on the main purpose, you remember that it is not the end of the journey yet.

The sun extends those luminous hands to your chest, takes a look at the messed up organ, then turns those fractures and splinters into a window; where you can see through your soul; where you can see the hidden gifts buried under the once was smooth flawless surface.    You understand that even a heartbreak is yet another way of evolution, bitterness slightly develop into appreciation…and you murmur a “thank you” and a little prayer.   You feel loved although someone slammed a door thrashing your passion and infatuation, but you have seen others standing at the end of corridor lovingly collecting and embracing the smashed defeated bits. You are whole again.

The sun glimpses a smirk on your face, she walks with you hand in hand, steps swift and sturdy, until you gain momentum…then she runs, quickly…for you to chase her again. And you effortlessly do 😀

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5 CommentsLeave a comment

  1. that was brilliant, on so many levels 🙂

  2. Me loves ya Nerro 🙂 The ending put a wide smile on my face 🙂

    May your days be filled with all the playful, sunny games your beautiful heart can take 🙂

  3. ezay elkalam 7elw -yet painful- kedah!

  4. You have been tagged 🙂

    http://shimaagamal.blogspot.com/2010/06/royal-tiara-tag.html

  5. the sun will always shine again, as long as we keep our window open to see it. and when walking towards it, it would for sure give us an extra glimpse- for it feels how much we need it.
    with sun shine come flowers and with flowers come laughter and happiness ISA 🙂


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