Tayeb seriously, tell I shouldn’t feel that I belong to this place :D
The minute I stepped in Disney World I felt at home..at ease. I laughed my heart out, and sang along (Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious).
ahhhhhh ya albi…If only I was a real cartoon princess :D
I asked if he is here for “a reason, a season, or a lifetime”. “lifetime” he answered. While I was sure he is there only for a season.
during that season “I was taken by His voice and His gestures, not by the substance of His speech. He charmed me but never convinced me; for He was too vague, too distant and obscure to reach my mind.
I have known other men like Him. They are never constant nor are they consistent. It is with eloquence not with principles that they hold your ear and your passing thought, but never the core of your heart.”
Life has been good on my side the past few weeks bardo, I have to admit ya3ni:
- I’ve been promoted :D “yupppppppie”
- My bad Achilles tendon is much better, and am almolst pain free
- Am going on vacation ISA starting mid next week ”halulujah”
- I met a guy that I so wanted him to be mine, yet he could be only in my dreams. It was the kind of thing that after the encounter I was like ““Even though this is clearly impossible, it’s amazing” :D. Moral of the story “frog princes do exist” ;))
I am neither amused, nor challenged!!!
and a tad heavy-hearted (for a reason I know), and am angry for I have seen it coming, yet being the incurably optimistic person that I am, thought I might have a chance.
Not to mention the severe mood swings; as fun as it might be, being a Gemini is obnoxiously exhausting.
Love,
Nerro, Rateeba & Ensaf
and here is mine:
- El Satr wel Se7a: at the top of my list, and am quite speechless here…cannot find the appropriate words to talk about those two huge blessings. for me they sum up God’s Graciousness.
- My mom: for everything…for being there, for helping out, for the flow of love and tenderness, for making life worthwhile, for teaching me how to forgive, for making me realize how to live a life and look the world in the eye. for making our home a place that I always miss when away. for the morning smile and the good night warm hug.
- My dad: for the lovely smirk the lightens up my face whenever I think about him, for the support and acceptance of any state and always being ready for the worst, for the uncondintional freedom that I strive to prove am worthy of it. for my (childhood) friday memories.
- My twin sister: the most important person in my life; for the voice of reason that she adopts whenever I start rambling and going to extremes. for the heartly laugh before bedtime, for growing up together, for her patience and love, for making me laugh for no obvious reason.
- My friends: I have to admit that I don’t have a big circle of friends, but they are REAL ones, they are the ones who I turn to (they even approach before I even turn to them).
- My Job: el7amdolelah for that, I am not what of those who started off with a well crafted career plan, I realized my career was a mess a tad late in the game. But things worked out eventually
- My car: bondo2a is the best, super ghalbana, she gets to endure Ali (el sayes) maltreatment, and the daily bahdala in downtown. Yet, without her it would have been me who has to go through the daily bahdala.
- Being able to be positive, and see the glass half full.
- Being able to dream and have dreams fulfilled.
- Being able to love as if I have never been hurt before (believe me as naive as it seems, I consider it a blessing)
- Being accepted and loved.
يا ربي لك الحمد لجلال وجهك وعظيم سلطانك
I assume everyone has done this already, but if you haven’t please take the time to list down your blessing :D
Was asking a friend this morning about her new job and if she is happy or not? she said, “well, much better than the old one”. Fa I was like ya3ni you are HAPPY? She then replied am fine with it, nothing makes me happy any more.
Her answer triggered a prolonged conversation about life and happiness that ended with her picking on “my happy life”. The thing is I rarely hear people saying “el7amdolelah”, I never hear the word “we are happy we are alive”, “rabena yedeem el ma3roof, or el se7a, or el satr….a lot of other underestimated or overlooked blessings. I am not generalizing but seriously we need to start counting our blessings..and I believe that happiness or at least a faint miasma of it will start making home in our lives.
My very personal theory is that Happiness is a fluctuating feeling or a state of mind that totally leaps in if the person is genuinely content or satisfied “Rady” that is. It varies according to the velocity and intensity of the roller coaster called life. We as humans cannot maintain the same level of tolerance and “Reda”…at this point it is either you give up and call her ( life) names, or hang on, fight, or even subdue until the turn is over with and reach a phase closure. The closure might be joyful or sorrowful..nothing is guaranteed. The only certainty in life is that we will never know what’s gonna happen.
“But life leaps over oblivion lightly. Losing only a thing or two of no importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud”
Shooting star:
It is the night of the shooting star, been waiting all my life to make a wish while glancing at it. Never happened. While staring at the dark sky I wondered why on earth am I clinging to that faint hope while am guaranteed an “egaba” if only I approached.
Book Recommendation:
Yann Martel’s Life of Pi – highly recommended but a tad “disturbing”.
I am at this point where I feel that I really need to turn my life upside down. It is getting mundane and I feel soooo off track. Like I have stopped when a new year decided to unravel.
I am not whining about my life bel3aks. El7amdolelah, am leading a very good one..am thankful and grateful for the stability that people sometimes crave for. What I mean here is that I as a person, have not done something of an impact to anyone or myself in the past few months. Have not improved a tad on the emotional, spiritual, and intellectual levels, have not done something that I would be really proud of (away from READ). I unintentionally decided to resort to comfort zone, it was delightful at the beginning. But now, I feel so…..(I don’t know the word, or maybe I know it but just don’t’ want to admit).
Am waaaaaaaaay off track, am not happy with my dormant status… and I have to do something about it.
aw zamano gay ya3ni :D
It has been a year already?? I love the atmosphere, the preparations, the colorful lanterns (and I mean the original Egyptian ones, not the tasteless Chinese) -I mean have you seen the korombu fanoos!!- and the spirit that makes up for the whole year.
I had the chance to go out this morning and stroll around the Hussein Area (where one can really feel that Ramadan is really a tiny tad away). Lovely (zeena) in the alleys, not to mention the nuts, dates, and hibiscus….it was sort of an extravagant ceremony for the senses walahi.
May you have a blessed Ramadan..enjoy it to the fullest, and get the best out of it :D
Ramadan Kareem (tam ta tam tam tam)
Obra…Obra..Obra: or 2asr sakafet saft el laban. That’s what I can now call the once allegedly was the Cairo Opera House. (after attending a musical at the MAIN HALL).
The Cairo Tower: ewww, what’s with the flashing lights. For those who haven’t seen this yet. The tower now hideously lights up with different color schemes. (a7mar, asfar, mauve, and sometimes kolo ma3 ba3do).
Praxa: a superb musical comedy; a live proof that Egyptian extraordinary talents do exist, and they are no longer urban myths or deceased legends. The whole show (performance, music, and Scenography) was simply candy for the soul.
Autumn in New York is not the best movie ever, but for some reasons I just like it. Richard Gere and Winona Ryder are wonderful, I like Winona Ryder originally coz she is the one who did Jo March character in Little women the movie.
Although the movie theme is just an old and repeated one yet there are moments and quotes that I can’t just let go:
When Will told Charlotte, “you ruined me for other women” she said “I saved you for them”.
“There’s only 2 kinds of love stories in this world…boy loses girl, girl loses boy…that’s it. Somebody always gets left behind”
When Will told charlotte “I am too old for you” she replied “I collect antiques”.
Since I am a fan, Charlotte quoting Emily Dickinson, the # 1 American female poet, was just perfect.
Gotta leave now, but not without quoting Dickison too :))
POOR little heart!
Did they forget thee?
Then dinna care! Then dinna care!
Proud little heart!
Did they forsake thee?
Be debonair! Be debonair!
Frail little heart!
I would not break thee:
Could’st credit me? Could’st credit me?
Gay little heart!
Like morning glory
Thou’ll wilted be; thou’ll wilted be!
A place where rhetorical Eve is way far from being the all time desired femme… The first thing you hear is a harsh woman yelling….HEY YOU…Dry up your tears, do not expect neither our sympathy nor compassion…..
Familiar faces; ordinary cheery grandmother, a high school girl full of promise, a passer by mute woman, or even the next door neighbor….all there for different reasons….yet crime and violence drove them to the same fate.
Chaos, mental illness, and depression inside the walls of solitary confinements….lost and scared…. 23 hours a day and the only human contact is a voice on the other side of the wall ….wonder what were their dreams??? Well, don’t even think about it …only debris of crashed dreams and ambitions can be found.
Day by day they find their way, inside the new not hospitalbe enough residence. WOMEN STILL WOMEN… creative cooks, neat housewives, and show girls singing and dancing awaiting the audience applause.
At the end of the hallway, a woman sentenced for lifetime…singing a song for hope despite of her despair.
These days are the toughest….emotionally that is, am trying to ace -although deep down I would be happy if I just passed- this harsh test of genuineness and self credibility.
I am monitoring myself and striving to prove that I am not fake, and that I am about what I believe in. Time and duration have been forced upon me, had I the chance I would have postponed it till the end of the world.
Biased a tad, I deliberately rise above those creeping droplets of nuisance and abhorrence.
God…..give me strength to make it through.
In her book Ex Libris: Confessions of a Common Reader; Author Anne Fadiman wrote: “If you truly love a book, you should sleep with it, write in it, read aloud from it, and fill its pages with muffin crumbs..”
Although I loved the book yet, the minute I laid eyes on this particular sentence I had to disagree out loud, and called the lady a BOOK BRUISER (I usually talk to authors and characters while reading 3adi khales).
I then paused to reflect on readers behavior, and tried to compare mine to friends. It occurred to me that people never seize to amaze you with your eccentricities while reading. The more you watch them the more you feel compelled to write a book about their odd reading behaviors or habits.
For instance -away from talking to the characters and authors- me being a neat reader I tend to treat books with extra care. I really really love to see them always as good as new. My reading kit (see attached photo ;) includes a Book, eye glasses, and highlighting flags -mind you I don’t use pens, pencils, or fluorescent highlighters- whenever I come
across favorite lines, quotes, or paragraphs I stick one the flags on them. Needless to say that each color is of significance :
Pink: favorite quotes/lines
Yellow: researchable material
Orange: bloggable thoughts :D
what about green and blue?
Am not big on them ..fa I use them as back-up
What about you!! Do you have any other odd or intriguing reading habits to confess?
And I finally made it :D
It has been in my mind for a while, yet since am pretty much technically challenged fa I kept on postpoing the “Go Live” phase.
Guys and Gals,
I would like to invite you to the Pink Planet Podcast, Triple P is a podcast that offers nothing but good news everyday…well, mesh awi ya3ni, but I will be digressing most of the time about stuff ya3ni. I have a lot of skills to work on tab3an, bas I really think it is so much fun :D
Narnoura,
reporting live men 3al kanaba,
The Pink Planet
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